Title : Will You be my Bad Boy?
Author : Me
Rating : PG-13
Pairing : Brendon / Ryan
POV : 3rd
Summary : Brendon and Ryan are a couple for quite some time, but at school they still get beaten up for it. One day Ryan is sick of it and he does something that will change everything.
Disclaimer : This never happened, and I don't own them.
Beta : Nora (youlookslashy) , thank you sooooooooo much for making my fic so much better <3
Author Notes : Thanks for reading <3 More a/n at the end of the chapter.

They’re still standing like that when Lucy gets home. John lets go of his son, who then goes to his mother. Lucy wraps her arms around Brendon as tight as she can.

“I can’t lose him, he’s my soulmate.” Brendon sobs.

“I know honey,” Lucy says, not knowing what else to say, "I know."


When Brendon wakes up the next morning, he has a really bad headache. He goes downstairs and into the kitchen to take some aspirin.

“Why aren’t you at work?” Brendon asks when he sees his parents sitting at the kitchen table.

“We’re both going later. We have to talk to you, so sit down,” John says. Brendon sits down, and wonders what it’s about.

“We know you’ll hate us for this, but you aren’t allowed to go to Ryan’s trial. And when he’s in jail, we don’t want you to visit him,” Lucy says.

“But that’s not fair!” Brendon yells.

“Brendon, we honestly think it’s better for you. You can go to the last day of his trial, so you can say goodbye, but that’s it.”

“Fuck you!” Brendon yells, and he storms to his room. He slams the door really loud, and falls down on his bed. But then he feels like he’s gonna throw up, so he quickly runs to the bathroom. He throws up three times, and then sits down on the cold floor. He feels that he’s crying, but it’s normal to him now, since he’s been crying so much the last couple of days.

When he hears that his parents are leaving, without saying goodbye, it’s too much for him. He gets up, runs to his room and grabs the scissors. He has never done this before, but he has heard so much about it, that he just decides to try it out. He makes a deep cut in his arm, and almost immediately blood starts to drip off of his arm.

A couple of minutes later there are multiple cuts on his arm, and there’s blood all over his pyjamas. But right now he doesn’t care about that, he feels like he has to do this, like it helps. When he finally feels a bit better, he goes to the bathroom and cleans the wounds. He then goes back to his room, puts on other pyjamas and throws the other pair into his trashcan.

“I’m such a fuck up,” Brendon whispers to himself, as he lays down on his bed. He turns on the tv and just watches cartoons the rest of the day.


Two weeks later Brendon is sitting on the bench that is outside of the courtroom. His parents wouldn’t let him go inside, but he still wanted to be there. Especially today, because today they will decide how long Ryan will go to jail. So today Brendon and Ryan have to say goodbye.

After about an hour, the door opens, and Brad’s family walks out of the room. A couple of minutes later the rest of the people, including Ryan’s family, come out of the room, but there’s still no sight of Ryan. But then a man comes out of the room, and he walks up to Brendon.

“Are you Brendon Urie?”

“Yeah…”

“You can come with me now,” the man says, and Brendon gets up.

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a/n: About the Panic! break-up and stuff ; I will keep posting this fic. And I will post 'Full Moon', the Joncer fic, but I might start posting that one somewhere this week, or maybe I'll wait 'till this one is finished, I'm not sure yet. But when this fic is done, I won't be writing or posting any more Panic! fics. It simply isn't the same band anymore. I'll wait 'till there are new bandmembers, and if I feel like writing about them, I might. If I don't feel like writing about them, this is my last Panic! fic, well, together with 'Full Moon'. I will keep writing and posting original fics though. And maybe still fanfics every once in a while, just probably not Panic!.
-xxx- Sam